Today, I had a dream. I was at some place with err I think Coco and some law school friends. Probably a school. They had this event where there was some kind of obstacle course thingee set up. Lots of slides, and a swimming pool obstacle set up on their parade square using freakin' balloons as a barricade to keep the water in place. There was some kind of scoring system based on how long you take on each obstacle and prizes to be won - I guess it's something like Ninja Warrior?
So all of us go and sign up...except i realise that i forget my ticket. I call my mother (probably a reflection that i do this too often in real life 0.o) while the rest go ahead and give the course a try, and she tells me she'll pass the ticket to me. I wait a while, then someone tells me that the course is closing in ten minutes' time. I call her again, and i realise that she's on the way to Simei. Either she has a prior commitment or she thought the event was in Simei when it was actually in...Bedok? Or something.
So i dump my bag with my friends (who've somehow finished the course in that time) and buy another ticket to join in the fun. First obstacle involves dashing along some wide beam. There are quite a few beams laid side by side, so quite a few people attempt the beams together. I'm waiting behind someone, but when i attempt the obstacle that person suddenly disappears. It turns out that i finished the obstacle in record time. The organisers are impressed. The next obstacle requires me to do a roll back along the same beam. I do that, once again in record time, and then...nothing.
I go up to the counter to ask what's going on, and they tell me that i got disqualified because the sensors at the end of the beam recorded me twice before i attempted the roll - probably because i shuffled my butt a bit before starting. I tell them that i want to buy another ticket, but they refuse, telling me that they're going to close the course soon, anyway, so why don't i go join the awards ceremony instead?
I can't exactly remember what happens after that - except that i was trying to go somewhere - not the awards ceremony - and i proceeded to get lost in some other area. Maybe i was trying to attempt the course in secret? Then i suddenly wake up in the middle of the night, feeling very indignant over the bad end to the dream. I wanted to go blog about it immediately, before i forget the details of the dream (which tends to happen pretty often), but then i remembered that i had to go to work later on, so i just recited the details quickly to myself and went back to sleep.
Anyway, i'm just so pissed off at how my dreams are always like that. It always ends on a disappointing note. There will always be this temptation, whether it is completing the course in record time or reaching a location to meet people. Or there may be a pretty girl/woman who wants to sleep with me or something lol. I will try to reach the temptation but I will always fail either because of small obstacles in my way or because of constant interruptions.
I was thinking that i have some kind of character issue that prevents me from truly having fun or something like that, which causes me to constantly have these sorts of dreams. But it could also be a limitation of the mind or something like that. It's like, for this dream, my imagination probably couldn't build the next section of the obstacle course on time, and so my dream stops the fun right there and gives me a lame reason why i can't continue. Or it could be related to my mild inattentive ADHD syndromes; i can't ever get satisfaction because the stories in my head take time to develop (enough that the ending matters to me). And by the time they do develop, my mind has moved onto something else, another location and another story. This probably explains why there usually isn't a tragic ending in my dreams - just my satisfaction unable to be fulfilled because i keep thinking of new ideas on the side, and i either add them to my dreams as obstacles or i suddenly just shift the story to a new location, with a new plot. Either way, it's just frustrating and really doesn't help me look forward to sleeping at night.
