Hmmm...so valentine's day is tomorrow...and well, just like last year, i've got nothing in mind and no appointments to attend. Although i was pretty busy with BMT last year so it wasn't much of an issue.
It's really weird, seeing all the NS dudes on the internet checking out nice restaurants on websites and going crazy over planning for gifts...seeing them trying to fight their budgets and their bank accounts too, for that matter.
I'm planning to spend a quiet evening at home by myself...which isn't as bad as it sounds because there ARE quite a few single people out there. My parents would probably want me to eat with them on valentine's day..like my mum would say something about there not being any dinner at home and all that.
But i'm not going to do that this year of course...and it's not like i'm TRYING to be nice or seem nice and let them have their private time...it's just that valentine's day is a day for couples and even if they wanted me to join them, i'm grown-up enough to insist that they eat on their own. It's
for their own good, anyways.
Well, i was thinking about couples and all that, and this particular person popped up in my mind again, as she's had countless of times this year.
Why does it have to be
you, of all people?
I think any guy in my situation would just pick up the phone right now...
And find some excuse, any at all, to talk to you, or sms you...
But i don't do that, and it's not just because of shyness...
But also because it isn't possible for anything to happen...
It might work out, but i must hear it from you...
But because i can't ask you, i'll never hear it...
Which is why i sometimes yearn to get out of here..
To get back to the real world, to school life or working life...
Just so i can meet another You...
Yes, that's right, someone who looks, and acts...
...Just like you.
