Hmm..the past few days have been pretty tough..mainly because of the countless rehearsals that i had to do as one of the two MCs for the change of command parade...yep, our brigade commander has changed. I used to think of it as a good thing..you know, new leadership, new ideas..but now it's just new leadership, new RULES..let's hope that some of them aren't TOO restrictive.
In any case, the parade went without a hitch, i said my lines correctly and clearly, and i finally emerged from the rubble of frantic soldiers and last minute instructions...relatively unscathed! Yeah, it's really great, no extra guard duties awarded to me as i had feared for any grave errors i might have committed 0_o..in fact the brigade sergeant-major said that i did a great job! :)
He then recommended to my own company sergeant major (who is, for your information, of a lower rank) that I BE AWARDED WITH A LONGER WEEKEND THIS WEEK 0.0 ...
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...Nothing happened. Lol like what the hell?? Where's my OFF DAY??
Haha but i'm not really pissed off or anything lah...i'll just treat all of it as a good experience, which it WAS, in any case.
...Although i would really LOVE to have that off day. Lol.
Man, our company sergeant major is simply amazing. And, well i'm sure the whole company knows about this already, including her, but i'd like to take the opportunity to thank her...
...for making us take care of things which don't exactly fall under our jurisdiction, like the camp's fish pond (the fish pond isn't ours, and isn't in our company premises..and since we do ALL the cleaning ALL the time anyway..i wonder if the fish are supposed to be used to help us signallers transmit messages in times of war..?)...
...for volunteering the signallers when anyone of higher rank needs help for all sorts of
saikang...(i'm reminded of..hmm..the setting up of PA systems...transporting stage props...cleaning the fish pond...carrying of stores...)
...for trying to make work as
efficient as possible...like when she forced the men from one bunk to cram into the other two...supposedly for a more
efficient area cleaning and inspection.
...for coming down hard and awarding extra guard duties, mainly for things that will REALLY matter when war actually comes...like, you know,
long hair, t-shirts that are tucked out, not waking up at 5.30am to eat breakfast...yeah and who cares if you slept at 1.00am the night before (wait a sec..you slept late!! you deserve more punishment for that offence! Insomnia? What rubbish..go report sick before you give that kinda excuse!)
I wonder why is it my CSM
never truly gives welfare to anyone in the company...Like the only "welfare" she gives us is when she forces us to book in early (
"for your 'welfare' what..to get more sleep..") or when she forces us to wake up one & a half hours earlier to eat breakfast (
"for your 'welfare' what..so that you won't faint during the run later...")
Earlier on she accused people of lying in order to book out earlier when they said that they had consumed dinner, and wanted to force them to eat the parade leftovers (and thus satisfying the request of a superior that we get people to help finish the food...2 birds with 1 stone!). Her reason was ..
"for your 'welfare' what...i don't want the company to be responsible if you're blur and get into an accident on the way home..." The contradiction in her statement's so strong, it's practically crying out to be noticed.
Sigh. I guess i just can't fit into this lifestyle. Regimental discipline's a no-no for me...i believe that the rules were there for a reason...a reason that we shouldn't forget. But there ARE lots of times when certain rules and standard operating procedures need to be looked at..placed under a microscope. Especially when they just don't make any SENSE anymore. These army rules and SOPs were conceived by fellow human beings after all..and the more rigidly we follow them, the more they simply become bureaucratic red tape.
Well, i'm getting tired of bitching...AND writing, for that matter. Tomorrow's mahjong! With my sister's friends..i'll just try not to lose money lol..And after that i'm getting dragged off to watch some live soccer...Singapore VS Malaysia!! I
predict that..Malaysia will win. I'm not
praying that Singapore will win. But...i'd
prefer it if Singapore wins lah haha.
Driving lesson's on Sunday..and there's guard duty next friday, so i suppose i'll only be free for dinner with jac & kenneth & the usual gang next week on saturday night. And THAT means that i'll only be free for outings with other people the week after. No more time to spare!!
Which's...good i suppose, since it means that there'll be a minimum period of time during the weekends where i'll be sitting in front of the computer, moping to myself and asking myself why another weekend has passed by without any social interactions whatsoever. In short, less time to feel all lonely and shitty.
Maybe i should start inviting other people out to dinner or bowling or movies or stuff like that...hmm but i'm always too shy and too afraid that the other party gets the wrong idea...
It kinda explains why i only go out regularly with "the usual group"..they know me well enough that they'll never get the wrong idea.
Ahwell.
I DID say that i was tired of writing, didn't i.
