Sigh. This sucks. I'm feeling rather depressed. Hardly anything seems to be looking up at the moment.
The law of contract is actually very interesting. Yes, seriously. I find the contract textbook to be one of the most interesting reads ever. There's so much intrigue, and reading the judges' rationale for their rulings in full sorta gives me an insight into the way they think. I don't agree with some of them. And i like rationalising why i think that there should've been another result. It's actually very fun and thought-provoking.
Learning the RULES of contract in preparation for the test, however, is boring like hell. This, of course, is mainly because i no longer have the time to read the textbook in order to prepare for the test; reading the rest of the necessary topics would take another ten days. The textbook is far too detailed and long-winded. I take too much time to absorb the arguments and form my own opinions and criticisms.
And so i read notes. And muggers. Which are so dry and uninteresting that i end up getting distracted easily and dallying around...my revisions starts to go much slower and i start looking at the err dark side of my life and at all the imperfections and dissatisfactions.
Gosh...i'm tired of having to prove myself over and over again in this kind of setting. I'm tired of having to MEMORISE points in my notes and CRAM. I want to just sit down and LISTEN in lectures and tutorials, and just DISCUSS and LEARN, without having to lose focus and interest in class because i've missed some of the teacher's points and have lost sight of the big picture.
And THAT's because i'm busy TAKING NOTES in preparation for some year-end test, and in anticipation of some hard-core CRAMMING for a whole week before that. And i CAN'T multi-task that well. If i listen and take notes, the teacher would have finished the next point before i even formulate my thoughts. If i focus on taking notes, it will be akin to not listening to the lecture at all.
GODDAMMIT. In addition to actually learning the law and its theories, we have to bloody learn how to organise our time during the test, how to answer test questions, how to plan our revision, etc etc etc...gaah. I'm sick of this.
I don't think i care much for the contract test anymore. I hope friday comes sooner, because i don't really care much for being fully prepared anymore. Come and get me, contract test, for i am sick of you and i just want to get you over and done with.
