Oh yeah, by the way, i've got something to share for those Pet Society players out there...
Check it out! I've got all 13 gold medals in the game! Cool, huh? XD
Okay, yeah, it's a little crazy and a tad obsessive, but well...i'm the only person among my social circle who has gotten all of them!
Okay, yeah, you can say that i'm the only crazy and obsessed person out of all my friends... :|
I managed to get the full set two days ago, when i finally won the betting game 300 times. Finally. So well, this means that i'm now moving on to BETTER things in life, like say...er...studying? Oh CRAP life sucks.
Anyway, on to more dreary topics...i got my semester results back two days ago...and they put me right smack in the centre of the cohort. I don't even know if i'm in the top half or bottom half...it depends on whether i'm an optimist or a pessimist erps. That's how much i am on the fence...or, as elitists would put it, that's how close i am to the edge of the cliff.
Urgh, well, even though i'm in the centre right now, i wouldn't be surprised if a number of the lower-scoring people in my batch quit law school at the end of our first year. Which would put me in the lower half of the cohort. And i'm still getting quite a bit of pressure from different places to finish in the top half of the group. Which means i have to buck up.
...I wonder why i care so much anyway. The competitiveness of this faculty is killing me. The weight of expectation is killing me. My lack of effective and organised studying and taking of notes are killing me.
Or maybe i don't really care about my results at all. I don't think i felt anything when i saw my results online. I was already...dull to the sense of anticipation and all that anxiousness by then. When i saw my grades, i just thought "Oh, okay.", and i looked away. It's not that i'm too relaxed, it's more like the pressure was too great for me and my body dealt with it by forming this emotional detachment from my grades and from legal theory.
Although, deep down, i could be rather disappointed. That night, i went home and turned on the computer. Then i started humming this song from Third Eye Blind, called "Wake for Young Souls", over and over, and the words in it somehow caught my ear...
..."Today i found my soul, i felt it die inside of me...So I turn to you,
life is like that you know...All things we know are going to fall away from me...Like a grain of sand slips through a good friend's hand..."
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