Coco smsed me last night (meaning early this morning), before i was about to sleep! I happily replied...but then now i wonder if my sms will ever reach her...:| if she has roaming but i don't, is that sufficient? How much does it cost to send overseas smses anyway? Exact figures please, i think i've heard enough "a bomb" as it is lol.
And i only realised late last night, in between periods of sleep, that i had forgotten to take back my bolster. :|
Okay, sorry for that random moment.
Anyway, after that slightly emo crap last night and five hours of fitful, intermittent and dream-filled sleep, i finally emerged from my room this late morning feeling a little...different. Better.
It's like...like i finally understood another aspect of her, and what she had gone through in the beginning of the year. Sort of. Not completely, but extensively enough.
I feel really sorry for her...all that crying and pain...but, let me be clear on this one: i'm not in it out of pity, or for the sake of achieving some perfectionist ideal i must deal with every relationship perfectly, regardless of who i'm in it with. I've probably been far from perfect so far; especially with my constant rants on this blog (despite me already saying that this was going to stop! >.<).
Still, my perfectionist self is sufficiently awake now, and he's purring in satisfaction in one corner of my mind.
The bastard.
Alright, well, i've gotta go! I have ten minutes to get my ass down to Jalan Bukit Merah for a wicked game of mahjong with kenneth, chinhow, and probably kenneth's brother...hope i don't lose! (I'm not going to hope that i win...that might be asking for a little too much! Damn, but i thought that i didn't believe in karma! XD)
