The feeling hasn't been any different from when i finished JC and my A levels were over. I often wondered how i'd feel when ORD arrived, but the answer was standing right in front of me the whole time.
The main similarity is with how the whole thing ended. My A levels ended with an important paper (can't remember which one) on a friday, followed by a Biology Paper 3 on a monday and a Biology MCQ paper towards the end of the week.
My National Service ended with a host of two day work-weeks. In both cases, the transition (from major exams to holidays and from NS to civilian life) was gradual and did not end with a blast or with any serious partying after that. There weren't any ceremonies or debriefs in both cases either.
So, in a way, i don't feel as if my NS life is really over, somehow. Today, i went back home after dinner outside with my family, still with this mindset that it's just going to be another weekend where i'll be heading back to camp at the end of it. I'm still doing the same activities that i've been doing on weekends these past 2 years, and somehow, i just don't have this "free" feeling that i had when i completed primary and secondary school.
With my past experiences of post-A levels phenomena (lacking any other appropriate term), i expect that i'll be having dreams that i'm back in the army again and back with my brigade. And i would experience the dream without thinking that anything is wrong in any way. (I just don't have the ability to lucid dream, no matter how hard i try)
Ohwell. Anyway, i shall be taking a break till the end of the year, perhaps. Reading up on Law, clearing anime, drawing manga, finding jobs and law-firm attachments and the like. Then it'll be time to take up a new job while i wait for university to start in August.
Not much of a plan, huh. But it's not as if there's much more for me to do anyway.
