Ok. I'm in a dilemma. You see, a pretty large part of my book-out time's spent at home, and home's supposed to be where all the fun is. It's been that way, at least, for the past..18 years or so. That should be about right. But at the moment..I've got nothing to do!
I've got a BIG problem. Since NS has started, whenever i'm at home i HAVE to do things that i can't do in camp. So although what i MOST want to do right now is read my books, i can't...'cos i can do that in camp! So why waste my book-out time? But then i'm not about to start any of the new comp games that i've acquired, simply because i don't want to get too into the game and waste my book-out time..in a sense i'm afraid to make a COMMITMENT to the game. And as for those which i've already started on, i'm already quite tired of playing them. I've got comp games that're highly rated, and yet i've stop playing them like after an hour or so because it just isn't FUN anymore.
TV's got pretty much NOTHING interesting going on, and as i just said, i don't feel like playing the computer, so all that's left to do at home is read my books, expecially when there's no one at home, a.k.a. no mahjong...but i CAN'T read my books and so yadayadayadayada...
I end up having to sit at the computer and play through 1 or 2 torturous hours of DotA with n00bs and leavers where i end up pleading to God for the game to end faster...I'm rather tempted to turn into a game leaver myself in order to accomplish this. Either that or i'd wander around the house trying to find entertainment.
Some of you might think that i've been playing too much, and that probably is the case. But somehow i just know that studying Law in advance or rereading my basic/advance driving theory books isn't going to help. I don't mind the studying, but it's gotta be...accompanied by some social involvement or the like...i think that's the only way to feel like my life's still moving forward.
You know you're in deep shit when you're on the computer, surfing random sites (and blogging too. woots.)and leaving the MSN messenger status as "Online" even during toilet breaks in a rather
desperate hope that someone will chat you up. Even now, i can feel my precious leave time being eaten up in these wasteful activities, leave time that could've perhaps been better used for a vacation or a chalet...
I get the feeling that my life has pretty much stalled for now. And it's gonna take quite a bit of gas to get the engine up and running again.
