10.30am, 03/05/06
I'm currently in the lecture theatre, starting our next lecture of the day. Man..it's really been a hard day..of no physical activities.. =D Writing because..there's nothing else to do. Ok, lecture's starting.
btw: Man oh
man i didn't bring any snacks to the lecture. I should've gone for canteen break just now..Oh why oh why do i have to be so stupid..:(
3.20pm, 03/05/06
Just came back from my err...judgement. For the dumb misfire that happened last friday. I'm getting charged..with 7days of S-O-L (stoppages of leave). Basically, i can't book out, go canteen, and i have to report to the Duty Orderly Sergeant every 2hours in my smartest uniform from 6am to 10pm. No matter what else i'm wearing before that. Then there's also the staff parade every night at 9.45pm which i have to attend.
Sigh..can't go for class outing this weekend, Can't say goodbye to my parents...my mum in particular's leaving Singapore for over a month next monday. Can't use my comp and can't help to shift my stuff over to my aunt's place. Long week ahead..I should've expected it to happen anyway.
Could i have escaped it? Probably. I reported myself in fact. One of the sergeants knew..i wasn't sure if he'd slaughter me for not reporting but it turns out he'd have let me off the hook..maybe just give me informal punnishment. But maybe it wouldn't have changed things..i tend to feel guilty pretty easily. It was extremely stupid of me. Sigh. But at least i did the right thing...scant consolation, i suppose.
10.15pm, 03/05/06
Just came back from night parade...this punishment sucks. Although we DO get a little compassion...everyone kinda thinks that we're broken-hearted people close to tears (though it isn't THAT far from the truth). Ahwell. Time for sleep.
7.45pm, 04/05/06
I cried today. Sobbed myself silly in the shower where nobody could see or hear. That makes it twice this year. Twice in 5 years too. I wonder why.
Tried to keep it to myself but couldn't stop the feeling of helplessness. I suppose my section-mates could see. They asked me if i was ok..for some reason that has always made me want to cry even more.
I can't see my parents over the weekend, and i'll have to do sentry duty on sunday till 2am in the morning..the morning that Nutcracker starts. While other people were covered up by their sergeants, i'm being punished for an accident...an accident that i reported myself in for. It doesn't make any difference to the "higher powers". Things can be so harsh sometimes.
11.05pm 05/05/06
Soo...it's just me and Jensen left in the bunk. Everyone else in the platoon's back at home. There's a total of 10 trainees still at our company block.
I'm getting..used to it i think. It's been a tough week but i still seem to have enough energy to go for one more week. Or maybe just a few more days. We'll see.
Oh man...a centipede just entered the bunk. It's..erm..crawling near the door. Not like the thousands of millipedes at the guardhouse area but a true
centipede. I'm gonna have to kill it..erm. I'll stop writing here.
8.26am 06/05/06
Hmm..nothing to do now. Nothing that i feel like doing at least. I've gotta pack my field pack for monday's 3-day long outfield disaster, but i don't wanna get started. Maybe later.
Just did my laundry, drew sketches of people i knew and listened to Michelle Branch (something other than Jay Chou for a change..) Now i'm just gonna wait till 8.40am, when i'll have to do area cleaning of the
whole school compound...0.0 Oh my. Talk about saigang.
4.40pm, 07/05/06
Man. I wish today was more like yesterday. The SOL gang have been doing outfield sentry duty for another company..because their sergeant major thought "hey, since we're there already...", although we're not actually supposed to leave the camp. Damndamndamn. Someone up there's gonna get into trouble sooner or later. I thought that today i might actually get some sleep..how stupid could i get!
To put it simply, there're lots of mosquitoes here. We're allocated a pitiful shack...about 2m by 1m to sit in, but there's easily 5+ mosquitoes in the same area at any time. The Aedes kind, with striped legs, and one leg curls up like a tail when they bite. Going outside's no use. It just gets worse. This morning when we got off the rover at 6am i could see more than 10 of them swarming around Jensen Loke, my allocated buddy (like who else could it be haha). These dudes bite through uniforms and socks too.
We're both battered warriors now..like the knight with the limp in one leg. I've got 3 bites on my forehead, 2 on my earlobes, 2 on my cheeks, 1 on my chin, 2 on my neck and 2 on my jawline right under my ears. My pal's even worse off.
I've powdered myself ghost-white and we've both put mosquito repellant all over ourselves to no avail (err..or at least not
much avail) I've even carved a not-very-nice vulgarity about mosquitoes on the wall and carved a huge cross below that, complete with dead mosquitoes stuck to it to keep out those bloodsuckers. Lol. Stupid, i know, but desperate times call for desperate measures.
I'm currently observing 4 of them flying around my friend..haha he insisted that they weren't attracted to him but i haven't had too many bites since sitting at the entrance of the shack. "You know why or not, Jensen? It's 'cos of
this. *points to cross* Hahaha!!" Still, night's falling soon...then the horror will truly start. There's even a sign on the wall of the shack..."mosquito paradise". Really scary.
My friend's been shouting "somebody saaavvve me" a few times now, in the style of Remy Zero. I've got exactly the same sentiments. When will this day ever
end???
6.02pm, 07/05/06
I've now got 4 on my hands, 6 on my neck and FIFTEEN on my head.
Gosh. Someone get me out of here. Or at least throw me a tube of Mopiko. Ten tubes.
9.00pm, 07/05/06
Man...i've been walking around in circles for hours. No more light to read books, my torch's running out of batt, my pen out of ink, and mosquitoes are on my tail. These guys're incredible. They can bite my neck and hands even while i'm on the move. 0_o
Really boring sia...besides my mum and dad i don't really have anybody to talk to. Too much to hope that a hot babe or really cute girl will give me a call or sms right about now...=|
5.45pm, 10/05/06
Phew, nutcracker was quite mad. Especially digging that huge fire-trench overnight and till evening the next day. Thank goodness for candles. And no rain. At least on the 1st day. That thunderstorm on the second night was quite uncalled for. Not that i had any choice. Bleah.
Anyway, we've washed all the stores and done all the saigang. Just finished some survey in heaven. Well...it IS an air-conditioned room. Next's all that admin work...cleaning our stores before 16km route march tomorrow. Sian man...can't wait for friday. Home after so long. Sigh. :)
